With everything that has occurred this year, I have been struggling with my gratitude and thankfulness, hence the many missing Thankful Thursday posts. It has become difficult to be grateful when I am so angry at so many people and at the Universe.
Don’t get me wrong, I am grateful for my kids and supportive family and friends through these difficult times. The problem is that I draw a blank when I think about what I am grateful for in my life. I will find something I am grateful for and then think about what I don’t have or how I got screwed out of something related to this grateful thing, and I am back to being angry again.
This mindset of anger has effected every aspect of my life where I am not striving to be the best I can be. My business has been slow going because I feel like I just run out of time to do anything. Instead of doing what I need to do, my mind wanders and before I know it I have been thinking and engrossing myself for over an hour. Poof that time I had while the baby is sleeping is now gone and I can’t get it back. The rift in my already damaged marriage is just increasing in size because if I can’t control my anger towards things then I can’t be in a good place to work on bridging the gap. Even my poor supportive friends are being neglected because I know that when I speak, all I do is spew negativity so I have just stopped talking at all. The only ones that I have tried to protect from my ungratefulness is my children because no matter what they are my main priority in life and I don’t want them to feel my anger.
This all means that I need to go back to the beginning and work on myself. I need to make working on my self care and self love a priority because dwelling on my anger is only bringing myself and everyone around me down.
My top 5 things to help me work on my self care:
- Write and recite daily affirmations
- Write 5 things I am grateful for every night, even when I am not feeling grateful
- Listen to/Read the Secret and my other go to self care books
- Write out my feelings in my journal, even if it is multiple times a day
- Give myself time to love myself
In the past, I have gone through these periods which were triggered by a stress factor and in the past few months since Evelynne was born there has been multiple stressors. I know I can’t beat myself up for needing to start over in my self care journey (trust me I have been beating myself up for months now) because I am only human. As humans, we will go forward and have our setbacks but that is what makes us grow mentally, emotionally and spiritually.
Do you have any tips to get out of your funk and back to self care?
It’s amazing how important self care is to overcoming SO many feelings and health struggles. I’m glad to see you put the work into it 😀
Your top 5 things to help you with your self care are so important and things we often tend to overlook…
I need to be better at practicing my gratitude routine. I find it definitely can make or break a day
I feel like you could be me right now. I am currently on a journey of self-care and gratitude and it is amazing how different I feel each day when I choose to focus on these positive things.
Such a good post! It can be so hard to feel grateful with these hard days!
Self care is so important, and you never realize just how important until you have kids and you put them before your own needs. Thanks for sharing your top 5!